I ain't want any regrets

When I should be studying for my LLB Year 1 here i am, nvm its for a reason. (:

Today while I was driving home yadadada Fly FM sudd had this call in thing where they say the topic of the day was what would you have done if you could be 17 again? It all started with Jules saying that how she met the boy she used to have a crush on back when she was 17 and now his a oh so successful man already with a happy family.

AND BOY THAT GOT ME THINKING AND WONDERING!

Regrets in life, what I would do if I could turn time back in life now and what I should do now and don't let go of what I have right now. The whole journey back along the LDP really was one journey that made me reflect back on my life, a part of my life practically.

If I could turn time back to when I was 14...

I wish I never played with your heart and all this would never had happen. I wish and wish so badly that thing between us never happened and I really do wish so until today. and if things did not have happened back then you and me would not have to go through what we are right now.

If I could turn back time to when I was 15...

I wish I had never let you go. That was one of the hardest thing I have ever done and the most painfull one of all. Till today, I still wonder IF AND ONLY IF I had never done what I have done I wonder where we will be today. You and I have moved on deep into our lives taking the journey that would never cross each other's paths. But deep within we both know that what we shared was something that would always remain a part of us forever.

AND NOW...

I don't ever want to let go what I have now but courage is what I need to make the best out it. No matter how hard its going to be, no matter how weird its going to turn out, I will MAKE SURE that I will do it and won't regret later on.

I rather bear with the consequences of it than to regret and wonder about it in times to come.

I remember years ago
Someone told me I should take
Caution when it comes to love
I did, I did
And you were strong and I was not
My illusion, my mistake
I was careless, I forgot
I did
And now when all is done
There is nothing to say
You have gone and so effortlessly
You have won
You can go ahead tell them

Tell them all I know now
Shout it from the roof top
Write it on the sky love
All we had is gone now
Tell them I was happy
And my heart is broken
All my scars are open
Tell them what I hoped would be
Impossible, impossible
Impossible, impossible

Falling out of love is hard
Falling for betrayal is worst
Broken trust and broken hearts
I know, I know
Thinking all you need is there
Building faith on love is worst
Empty promises will wear
I know (i know)
And know when all is gone
There is nothing to say
And if you're done with embarrassing me
On your own you can go ahead tell them

I think I have the most F up life at the moment now. and yes Its not EXAM STRESS. I know deep down its more than that.