i was the first one

you had and done it all with

but

no matter how much you try to hide it

the memories and the pain will always linger on

no matter how hard you try to forget it all.

oh MAMMA MIA, my ESL draft is due Monday, and I haven even written a word. :)

I say BRAIN GENIUS ELAINE.

GO AWAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i think....i think...i think.....

i just don't know anything anymore.

I'm never going to admit this, soooooo

I want this feeling to go away!

Funny it seems how so easily

you can put a smile on someone's face

even when it's 12 am.

and obtaining satisfaction when you see a smile spread through

that face.

because you know you managed to cheer that person up.

but

when it comes to yourself,

it's soo hard to try to be happy no matter what.

talk to me about it.

:(

For I know the plans I have for you.

Jeremiah 29:11

ana, if you're reading thanks for this.

Hot and Cold

I swear there's not even time to breath! There's so much to do and the clock seems to be ticking ever so fast. Its now me against time. =.=

Learning to pick yourself up after a BIG FALL isnt that easy as I thought it will be. All this while, I thought I was strong but somehow deep within I discovered, I'm not even strong emotionally anymore. With everything that has been evolving around me has weakend me.

It's still not easy but i'm sure i'll be able to do it!

College. Ahha. Oh yesssssss. I HATE MY NEW TIMETABLE! all because there's shot of lecturers in Taylors, they must choose to screw my timetable anddddd cause us all misery and depression. Gone are the days, where I have break daily with the gang, hanging out with zx, oh yesh i'll miss you dear girl. :) and, my classes use to be on the 2'nd floor now they're on the 5'th floor. okie, this i'm not complaining. EXERCISE. ;) barely even have time for that anymore.

As for driving lessons, i'm still only stuck at 6 hours. Mr. Chua seems to be so 'HOT in demand' he has no timeee to even fit me in. ahha. not as desprate for my lessons anymore the way i was before.

Social life. That word doesnt seem to exist in my dictionary anymore. :( but in a sense it's by choice also. I'll work my ass of till November get my target results and I'll kick asses that time. Till then, even if i were to become a nerd, it doesnt matter. Because i'm going to prove myself once again.

Presentations and assignments are filling up my calender at rapid growth rate. every date seems to be marked. I just realised something. Those days of english tution and Speech and Drama has really done me good. Seriously, wth the fees was like 1k pluss. But ahha today, it's money well spent. Somehow along the way, it has instilled into me soft skills that has developed with time to the fact that during econs presentation, i freaked out, forgot my speech, i managed to crap out a presentation that came out with the highest marks in class. :) ahha. Pure satisfaction. :)

oo. ESL. My abortion draft is due monday and I haven even done anything. :) typically me. Just waiting for writer's inspiration. I need pressure to do so. :)

oh yesss. There's officially not HOT GUYS in Taylors seriously. The March intakes, another great big dissapointment. :(

i was a dreamer before you let me down.

changes do happen in the world when you make an effort to do so.

how can a girl get this lucky?

tell me about it.

I'm anticipating.

sometimes i still wonder,

sometimes i still ask

did the problem lie within you or me?

we'll never know.

unless one day we choose to ask

Picking Up The Pieces

It's time to put the pass aside

start fresh and anew.

Its time to pick up the pieces

and learn from the mistakes.

I'll never let tears

override my happiness

I'll just be who i am and what i am

and

most importantly,

i will continue to have faith in myself

and

continue to believe in myself.

To all those

who were there for me during that time

i really dont know how to say thank you

love you guys!

We'll Dance The Night Away

Holidays have just officially started! :)
every reason to smile? to grin wider? i dont think so.....
holidays may be here to saty for a week butttt.....
I have now even no time to BREATH than normal college days.

I shalll post my assignment due dates here soo everytime i'm supposed to be doing research but i happen to be here, this will work as my reminder. So bare with me. :)

16/3-CPT Legal Draft. 1500 words. (Gay Marriage)
17/3-CT Legal Draft. essay 500 words and slide show. (Miscarriages of justice)
17/3-LAN essay. Malayan Union. :( sejarahh
18/3-Economics presentation. Slide show.
23/3-LAN Movie assignment
30/3-Investigative Study (ESL) draft. 1500 words. (abortion)
30/3-LAN Portfolio

Ok. shoot me now. someone please?

Ahha. hope that's good enough of a reminder! :)

SAM Fiesta was last night. Thursday night of all days. :) Main mission, to check out Hot Guys in SAM which we have not spotted. :)
Reached Taylors at 5.10 pm. Becauseeeee Ming Ping ahha the driver, took 10 minutes to reach campus from KJ LRT.
Like all other Malaysian events, it started 1 hour later. typically.

Basically, it was a very badly managed event. anddddd the worst thing? THE DJ SUCKED. wanna know who the dj was that night? our dearest dj at PROM....wth....
the same thing happened, the blasting music from bands who cant even sing a tune. mannnn it was like NOISE POLLUTION!
Food was horrifying. Guess what was served? Tuna sandwich. gawd. Kiddies Party huh?

Highlights of the nighttt!! :)

spotted hot guys! *grins* finally.
blasting awesome time with classmates. they're like hyper people on the dance floor! :)
great time with the djians andddddddddd
ahha, seeing our dear Lerg Foong on the dance floor dancing Latin. *whoots*
the Magic show. the show that stole the night.
got to know more people. :)

left around 10 becauseee, we couldn't stand the noise pollution annndd it was getting boring. :)
Ju Sian was sooo sweet and kind, to drop us back home. :) Thanks Ju Sian!

basically the whole atmosphere was a so called creating a clubbing atmosphere.
i liked what Mee Hon said, "let's get out of here, I'll take you guys real clubbing".
thats our next mission! :)

andddd the worst thing that could ever happen to me?
my mum asked me to change bag andddddddd she was rushing me like mad, i forgot my camera! wth right.
depressing.
pics comming up next post!

loves!

Of steering wheels and gears

Driving lessons started today!

and lol if you're wondering what happened. let me emphasise this. I CAME HOME IN ONE PIECE. :)

ok I admit i suck. :) HAPPY?

gear changing. man, i was superrrr lost and blur when my instructor taught me to change gear. all the free gear and lalalalala. andddd the coordination with the clutch, gear and accelerator. gawdddddddd i was friggin nervous ok.

next stop. driving practical.
went a few rounds the circuit. it was ok..didnt mati enjin at all.
then after that, my driving instructor chose to give me a heartattack.

"ok, now you turn left, then drive home." oh shitttt. i felt like peeing in my panties.

driving home meansssss, driving on the LDP! and it was starting to rain..i was praying like there was no tomorrow.

i drove all along the LDP and it was scary ok, with the rain and heavy traffic. so i thought hmpp, maybe i'll be going home using the Tropicana way? apparently, my drving instructor had a little extra in it for me. when i reached to the turning, he said go straight, go up the highway...i was like shit.

so maybe the route home may be via, DJ? the rain was getting heavier and the traffic was building up, i wasss shaking even more. came to the DJ turning, he said go straight go under the underpass. =.= my Goodness. so i droveeee and lol, i was so scared i couldn't think straight.
when i saw One U, i thought heyyy go home by BU! nonono that wasnt it all,

he said drive up the highway there again. !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
and the highway leading to Curve is one scary onee...so many cars. i knewwww shit. i have to drive under the Persiaran Surian now. Goodness save me someone?

but thank God i manage to reach home safely, phewwwwww.... the engine died on me just that one time, at the traffic light.

but heyy it's just the first lesson! :) what do u expect? haha.

SAM fiesta tomorrow! :) something to look foward to besides the holidays i guess. not that i'm looking foward to holidays nowwwww....ASSIGNMENTS. blehhhhh.

the times we spent together,

are slides that alwaays play on my mind,

constantly reminding me.

i just want to put everything aside.

Welcome March

Two months has passed and now we've just welcomed in March.
9 weeks in college already. :)

I'm just hereeee to rambleeeeeeee....so forgive me!
ahhhaa.
i just realised i have friggin loads of assignments to do
anddddddddd my ESL draft is due end of the month... so I have to talk abortion language.
My Gay marriage report for Legal this wednesday. SO GAYYY's out there! pleaseee help me ok! come out of the shell. and enlight me with your stories! *grins*

Driving lessons starts wednesday!!! yipeeeeee.....
Law talk tomorrroowwww by Monash Uni.

soooo blalalallalalalalaallaal

anddddddd

I HAVE TO FRIGGING LEARN TO USE ADOBE PHOTOSHOP! :)
seriously I never know howwww to use that program because I never EDIT my pictures.

Laine. Stayyy strong!!! Holidays aree commmmiiiinggggg! ;)

now LAN seems more intresting. :)