Shopaholics Lust

it's true what they say about Girls.
we're born TRUE SHOPAHOLICS.
come SALE season,
the whole mall will be flooded with girls spending money like it's water.
it's in our Blood. lol.



Going to satisfy my lust in about 45 minutes time.
SHOPPINg for the last time for the year 2008.
ahhh.
what a great way to end the year. :)
*there goes my money again*



Introducing to you my best shopping partner.......

Leanne and Laine

She's one helluva of a shopping partner.
kinda unexpected huh, Leanne is CRAZY when she goes shopping.
oh wells, she just makes shopping more fun.

oh how we both randomly run into random shops,
grab random clothes
and try them randomly and lol.

we kinda cause Noise Pollution in the fitting rooms.
*grins*



leanne.
ahhaa.
just realised i never did a b'day post for you.
so yeaaaa enjoy this one ok. :)


Leanne.
known her since way abck in Std. 4. we use to sit kinda sit together in the same row....
lol.
and we sat together again in Form 4&5.
i seriously thank God for her. She was my first friend when I went to DJ. :)

She's prolly well known in the whole school.
For her effing BRAINS.
sighs...
if only I had 1/3 of that Brains of hers. :)


She's the BEST.
can't ask God for a better friend than her. *smiles*
she's my partner in everything. someone who's always there for me.
always willing to listen to my random crap 24/7 in class and everywhere.
always there to pick me up when i fall.


to describe her and say how mucccchhhh i love this girl,
it's going to take me a lonnnggggg looonnnngggg timeeeeeeee.


we're kinda always together.
doing projects with her are a blast. ;)
we do last minute work. ALWAYS.
and when it comes to doing projects,
it's always my house that they trash. My room to be specific. *coughs*


no matterrrr howww mucchhh this girl can seriously irritate me
at timesssss.....with her brains and all
ahhhhhaaaa

LEANNE CHOONG LI EAN
you're the one that knows my deepest and darkest secrets.
one that I can bitch to non stop.
one that I can gossip with non-stop.

I'm goingggg to MISS YOU truck loads when we go to college. :)
prolly we'll meet somewhere along the same path one day since we're prolly doing the same thing now.
hahha

so anyways,

LEanne,

LAINE SAYANG YOU BANYAK BANYAK. :)

won't continue here or i'll be LAte and she'll scream at me. :)

continue later.....
going shopping now!!!

*jumps for joy*
ahhhaaaa

Baby.
I want you back.
i'll be here waiting for you.

missing you already.

11 November-27 November 2008

SPM period.

God Blessed My Soul and I survived. :)

MERDEKA!!!!!

It's been a long whileee since I've actually done some serious blogging.

I guess it's time I start to update.

5 November 2008

The day I officially ended High School! :)

gone are the days where i have to

wake up at unearthly hours,

wear that blue pinafore

wash my school shoes

tie and pin up my hair

making sure my nails are cut

running away from prefects!!!!!!!!!!

(i always escape from them some way or the other)

singing Negaraku, Selangor song, school song..yadadadadaaaa.....

it's like a big part of me seems to be missing.

but that's life, we just have to move on. :)

High school may be over, but the memories we share will always be a part of us.

angsana 07/08 girls

my dearest DOG died on Sunday.

I'm being diagnosed with CHICKEN POX at age 17

(yea that's that whatever disease ana was talking about)

can life get anymore worst?

period

Love ya loads ANA!

Boyfriends, lovers and relationships

come and go

but

Friendships are forever.

putting either one as your priority

makes a world of difference

at the end of the road.

making everybody look bad except yourself

has brought us to one conclusion

we're just disgusted by your behavior

and

therefore we lost our respect towards you.

Talk before you think.

period.

will update sooonnnnn.

Miss Yee The Ultimate Princess

Anabel Yee.

A self proclaimed Princess.

who sort's of behave like one. :D

*not even close*

She's the ULTIMATE GIRLFRIEND

she's just the best

you can search high and low

and maybe even the whole universe

but

you'll never find a better friend

than

Anabel Yee Hor Yan.

She's one heck of a girl.

She bites. She laughs. She cries.

She's human.

but

Integrate and Differentiate

her

She'll still and always will be

The Best Girlfriend

anybody could ever ask for.

She's just Special in all that

Anabelish ways of hers.

We've been always there

for each other.

and basically she's my Guradian Angel

Thanks for eveything Ana!!!!!

Love ya loads.

credits:

ana did this blogskin for me

bak chi ppl like me

i'm a noob at comps. :D

Hi laine ! :)

I am here to say , your notebook is as bak chi as the owner. :P and you just have to love me for doing this awesome layout ! :) yes you know you love meeee babe ! :D

tralalalalallallalalala.

BYE !

by the way , your password is so funny. x1000. why that? LOL.


Ana.

Dedicated to LILIAN TOO

Mummy and Me.

Lilian and Elaine.

The Mum and The Little Royal Brat. :)

This is the only pic I have that I kinda look like her.

To a Special Mum

As the years go by,

They Change many things,

But never the Love

That a thought of you brings...

..and never the pride

And the happiness, too,

That come from having

A great MUM like you!

With Love On Your Birthday

and always.

Stuck

Having to handle SPM stress is bad enough

handling others is a burden

but when it comes to making decisions

it's even worst

when you're torn apart.

and sometimes the worst thing that can happen

you just don't know what's next

Who Am I to Trust? To Say or Not To Say.

The Best. keep it to yourself.

period.

If Only Looks Could Kill

Meet En Dru.

Angsana's ABC

who is also Chooi Li's sweetheart. ;)

being randomly bored today,

we decided to capture something for our beloved Wai Kar.

we all know how "madly" she is over *ahem*

so...

we decided this is the best we could do for her.

something very similar.....

which she can keep and drool over 24/7.

DRU BEFORE HIS MAKEOVER

Dru After his makeover with

Anthea's hairband!

ps: doesn't he look exactly like *ahem* here.

Duh they're twins. :)

Wai Kar.

you better apreaciate what your gf's have done for you. ;)

giving you the best shot of him. (well something similar)

So frame this pic up

and if you're crazy enough

*quote Jason*

enlarge the pic

and place it on your pillowcase, your bedsheets and blanket.

hey..it makes a pretty good design!!

on a random account....

i guess WK is living up to her famous quote of

It's right for a girl to

have random partners and have random sex at any time. :)

*grins*

she needs a mountain load of counselling...

you just have to love me for this!!

Elaine!!!!! *....* is so fcu...g HOT*

Sweetest Memories of WK with her other Heartthrob

28/6/08

For those of you

who don't know WK

she's the BEST GF

anyone could ask for.

and with that famous quote of hers

well she's far from being a Playmate.

she's fierce and she Bites! :)

I dedicate my 100'th post to my GF Wai Kar! :)

love ya loads woman!

Knowing Nothing Is The Best At Times

these indescribable pain.

it's eating me up slowly.

every time,

it kills me just to know about it

and having to look at all that is around me.

I don't think things are as simple

as they seem to be...

your words

still so full of meaning

not portraying your feelings.

can anyone else hurt me even more

the way you're silently hurting me.

it's like a dagger through the heart.

and scars just don't mend immediately.

i feel so lost and insecure.

has the world come tumbling down

or some things were just never meant to be.

sometimes not knowing anything is the best

rather than to know anything

and the hurt and the pain just falls and sets in.

It's Time for War

finally.

The moment every fifth former has been anticipating for has finally arrived. :)

SPM is in exactly 5 weeks.

and yea I'm dead.

Just cant wait for SPM to be over.

I have a superrrrrrrr longgggg list

of things I've been dying to do for years!!!

school's starting tomorrow and this means.

FUN TIME IS OVER.

EVERYDAY. EVERY MINUTE.

IS STUDY TIME.

SAVE ME SOMEONE.

to my dearest blog,

I wont' be seeing you for a while unless....

there's something to blog about.

STUDY LAINE. STUDY.

It's now or never.

Hello Stress and Goodbye Sleep

September has come to an end.
And October will be rolling in soon.
shit.
SPM is in a month's time.

My stress level is way beyond max and trust me,
I don't even know how I'm going to survive.
Well than that's the job of Coffee and My beloved Chicken Essence. ;)

I really need to control my spending and STOP SPENDING MONEY.
I've spent like *i don't even dare to calculate* this month. :)
must learn to save.
what with recession comming in. lol.

finally.
The hard core mood has finally kicked in hard.
and it's driving me up and down the wall. ;)

just don't even have time to breath. :)

on a random note,
yea, jie you're right.
i should have listen to you long ago and not regret about it now.
i guess its not too late. :)
hehe.

Tomorrow is a public holiday and................
I have tution @ 10 am.
Add Maths wei. die.
Teacher called and
"elaine, I'm dropping all the hw in ur postbox now, I want it all completed by tomorrow."
pfft and I was having my dinner. mangkuk. shouldn't have brough my phone out. haha

so with all that amount of work and studying to do....
I'm never going to finish watching my 7 days. (i know..I'm outdated)
................. :)

and WK.
at least I don't drool over someone's picture 24/7.
I bet you have *ahem* picture under ur pillow. haha
or say and enlarge pic in ur room???

I MISS SCHOOL.

PERIOD.

Why need to study and memorise a whole lot about Reproduction.
Experimenting sounds better. :)
lol.

Girls

i know i should be with my books but i just have to type all this out.

GIRLS.

why are we just so complicating?

we seem to have that never ending conflicts between ourselves.

striving to be the most popular one.

always ready to kill to get what we want.

I know..it's condraticting. Me as a Girl saying all these.

but seriously.

I find us girls preety amusing at times.

one minute we can be best of friends.

the next we're bitting each other's heads off.

when we're close.

we're super close.

when we fight.

the roof and everything explodes.

sometimes i just wonder.

is it our nature that we're made like that

or

what other explanation is there to this all?

we keep revenges in us

altough we never say so.

seriously.....

why are we just so complicating?

I guess that's what makes us special.

because we're GIRLS.

period.

Staying Strong and Tough

I'm really really loosing it all.
I find it so hard to go through all this.
I just cant wait for the day I'll be able to spread my wings and fly.

Gawd.
Elaine. You need to stay strong.

I need to get a grip of my life.

Every single day.
I wear a mask. Putting up a brave show.
Deep within.
I'm hurting. I'm breaking down.

I'm so sick of it.

I just HAVE TO STAY STRONG.

Ps: for all those times you were there for me, it really means a lot. :)

I JUST FCUKING HATE YOU.
I DON'T EVEN KNOW HOW I CAN TOLERATE YOU ALL THESE 17 YEARS.
WHAT MORE ABOUT YEARS TO COME.
I JUST WANT YOU OUT MY LIFE.
I DON'T EVEN KNOW WHAT I HAVE DONE TO DESERVE ALL THIS.
I'VE ENOUGH OF EVERYTHING.
I'M JUST SO SICK OF YOU.

When You're 16 going on 17

Stupid this post may seem.

But its the truth and nothing but the truth.

Crap.

That's how I feel now.

All these years,

I look foward to every single b'day,

Anticipating the time when I can blow an extra candle on my b'day cake.

ahha. The sensation of being matured every year.

But now as I write this today as a 16 year old teenager

I only have a few hours left before I turn 17.

Honestly, I don't really look foward to turning 17 anymore.

It was a dream of a kid to be 17

but now,

I don't see the light in that dream anymore.

The only good thing is that ahem I can drive!!!!!!!!!!!

lol.

Tears are brimming in my eyes.

Well, I guess i just have to accept the fact that i'm getting OLDER...lol... :)

yet to make my 17 wishlist with my 17 dreams....

till then....when Elaine is still 16.....

the wonderful memories of being 16 will always be stuck in my mind.

Hopefully and prayfully,

me being 17 will bring around a whole lot of goodness!

Birthday Jitters.

Cheryl

Cheryl.

oo. You're 17 honey!

ahha. you're old. :p

hehe. I'm 2 weeks younger.

A girl whom I've known for 6 years. :)

the best girlfriend I could ever ask for.

She's unique with that very special touch of hers.

We gab till our jaws ache, our phone bill soar high.

HAPPY 17 Cheryl!!!!!

Come back to M'sia fast and save me!!!! :)

Love ya!

Laine.

Ps: sorry for the short post. Time constraint. Have to hit the books again. :)

Enjoy your b'day at Aus then with Cookie Monster. :) Hope he's with you!

Xiao

Happy Sexy 17 Ho Zhuxiao!

This is one girl

if you plan to write a book

She'll be a very usefull character

The amount of words required to

describe her, fills up a book. :)

zhuxiao.

someone who's totally unpredictable,

someone who's voice can be heard 10 km away.

she's good at gossiping. and i bet no one's better than her. ;)

We had an equal amount of conflicts like all friends have.

but I have to say, it was through it all

we learned how to tolerate each other better. :)

She's one of a kind! Really.

One minute, she's laughing, the next, she could be shouting at you!

She's taught me loads. :)

maybe all the bad and good.

She's your NO. 1 Amplifier.

And I'm proud to have her in my life. :)

Zhuxiao,

this is your b'day post from your "Sifu" ahem. haha

Stay the way you are

because I love you the way you are. =p

wouldn't want you any other way!

You're 17!!!!!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY PIG!!!!!

Lurve ya!

Laine. (your bimbo with the plastic smile)

Ps: The above is the truth, and nothing but the truth. haha.

Shoot Me Baby

Could anyone be so kind
enough to take a gun and shoot me. :)

I'm utterly going insane.
Trust me.

If I were to touch the books anymore,
I feel like I'm going crazy.
I don't touch the books,
I feel guilty.

Help me please Oh LORD this I pray. AMEN.

I have soo much on my mind
and I seem so muddled up.

Oh hail the much awaited stress.
for it has finally come!

I Feel it In Me

I can't believed I spent 3 friggin hours
just to write an EST essay. *gasp*

So much seems to be heppening this days
time's flying so fast
there's not a single moment where
you can actually enjoy those moments.

seem to be very random this days.
well, i guess it's a good thing that
Bye emo days where I can now finally concentrate.

going to nerd now.
ya. my concentration enzymes works best at optimum time.
which is now. :)

won't be updating so often
trials are on the way. :P

Tagged :)

Rules:

1. The rules of the game get posted at the beginning.
2. Each player answers the questions about themselves.
3. At the end of the post the player then tags 5 people and posts their names, then goes to their blogs and leaves a comment, letting them know they got tagged and to ask them to play and read your blog.



Starting time: 10. 24 PM

Name: Elaine Chin
Sisters: 0
Brothers: 0
Shoe size: 5,6,7,8
Height: 162 cm.
Where do you live: Malaysia
Favourite drinks: alcohol, ice blended mocha, Pineapple juice. :)
Favourite breakfast: Bacon, Turkey ham, muesli
Have you ever been on a plane: yes
Swam in the ocean: nope.
Fallen asleep in school: no
Broken someone's heart: yes
Fell off your chair: yea. Rene pulled my chair. :(
Sat by the phone all night waiting for someone to call: yes
Saved e-mails: yup. loads.
What is your room like: the table is full with books but yeah it's relatively tidy today. :)
What's right beside you: my phone
What is the last thing you ate: Mum's food
Ever had chicken pox: nope.
Sore throat: obviously
Stitches: yeah. 7 stitches on my forehead
Broken nose: nope.
Do you believe in love at first sight: corny. Yes. but I don't think they'll last forever.
Like picnics: haven had one for ages!!!
Who was the last person you danced with: me myself and I
Last made you smile: you.
You last yelled at: my dog.


Today did you:

Talk to someone you like: *smiles* i guess
Kissed anyone: nope..
Get sick: my leg cramps are getting worst
Talked to an ex: nope
Miss someone: yea.
Best feeling in the world: being with the one you love most
Do you sleep with stuffed animals: yea. loads. esp teddy bears. *grins*
What's under your bed: nothing.
Who do you really hate: backstabbers.
What time is it now: 11.38 PM

Randoms :

Q: Is there a person who is on your mind right now: yea.
Q: Do you have any siblings: nope.
Q: Do you want children: yea.
Q: Do you smile often: yup. till my jaw is aching.
Q: Do you like your hand-writing: sure of course. it's mine
Q: Are your toenails painted: i just removed the colour.
Q: Whose bed other than yours would you rather sleep in: hotel beds. i just love the way it smells and feels.
Q: What colour shirt are you wearing: black
Q: What were you doing at 7:00pm yesterday: stuck in the jam outside Tropicana
Q: I can't wait till: i get hold of everything.
Q: When did you cry last: last night. :)
Q: Are you a friendly person: yup.
Q: Do you have any pets: yup. my dog.

Where is the person you have feelings for right now?: in the room sleeping?
Did the last person you held hands with mean anything to you now? : whoose hand did I last hold?
Do you sleep with the TV on?: nope. never happend before
What are you doing right now? : doing this never ending tag. :)
Have you ever crawled through a window?: nope
Can you handle the truth? : yup. even when it hurts.
Are you closer to your mother or father?: equally just as close
Who was the last person you cried in front of? : my teddy bear.
How many people can you say you've really loved?: let's do some math and calculate my family members. :)
Do you eat healthy? : yup. minus the chocolate cravings.
Do you still have pictures of you & your ex?: yea.
Have you ever cried because of something someone said to you? : yup. when all their words really pierce or touch my heart.
How often do you go to church?: I'm backsliding. used to every week.
If you're having a bad day, who are you most likely to go to? : you know you are.
Are you loud or quiet most of the time? : Loud!
Are you confident? : it varies from time to time. but most the time yea.

5things I was doing 10 years ago..(1998)
standard 1. gee. crying?????
studying.
bossing around.
fighting with that fat ass.
my former obsession. Barbie dolls.

5 things on my to-do list today :
finish my mountain of hw
STUDY!!!!!
blog
clean my my wardrobe
ask Daddy for allowance rise!!!

5 snacks I enjoy :
APPLE
chocolates
Crisps
Pringles
doughnuts

5 things I would do if I were a billionaire :
i'll shop and shop everyday
i'll travel around the world in a private jet.
I'll buy over LV, Coach, Fendi& Channel
Help the poor
buy my dream house and car

5 of my bad habits :
Procastination
I seem to be forgetting stuff easily
Breaking promises that i made to myself
Messing up my room
I talk too much

5 places I have lived in :
My house
My old house
Texas
Canada
Hotels....

5 jobs I've had :
Full time Daughter
Student
Constant groner
Maid
Girlfriend

5 people I tag :
Anabel
Wai Kar
Brian
Mathilda
Enwei

Sacrasm ain't bringing you anywhere

You think you're super cool.
You think you're the best
You think you're untouchable.

Well the you're totally wrong.

For deep inside you're an ass that's feeling inferior of yourself.

You think you're great at everything.
You think you're a success in everything you do.

well so sorry then to tell you this.
You're just another BIG FAT FAILURE on planet Earth.

What's your friggin problem?
all you know how to do is too insult people round the clock.
I'm a human too and I HAVE FEELINGS.

so if you think all those insults & remarks of your are cool
think again.
it's just a reflection of your attitude.
A suck ass attitude that you have.

I just don't understand your friggin attitude.

Well i'll just see how far you can go in life with that attitude of yours.

If you can't accept me for who I am
that's too bad.

So just shut that friggin gap of yours
and it'll cause less noise pollution.

Try putting yourself into the shoes of those
receiving your insults.
you'll see how they feel.

Period.

Tagged

Zhuxiao tagged me.
I'm free so I'll do it. :)

Instruction :Remove one question from the above and add in your personal question.Make it a total of 20 questions and tag 8 people.List them at the end of the post.Notify them at their cbox that they’ve been tagged.Whoever who does the tags will have blessing from all.

1. At what age do you wish to married?
say 27-30

2. Study hard or play hard?
Play hard. :)

3. Who is the person u trust the most?
I've learned trusting yourself is the best.

4. Do you think you have enough confidence?
It depends. But yeah most of the time I'm very confident.

5. If you have a dream come true, what would it be?
*grins* to have all the money in the world. I want wings to fly.

6. Who is your favorite cartoon character?
Lady Elaine. (it exist ok. In America) love her loads.

7. What is your ideal friend?
someone who is trustworthy, caring and is always there in times of need and pain.

8. What is your goal this year?
Outstanding SPM results and a scholarship.

9. Do you believe in eternity love?
Cheesy. Yeah, I do.

10. If you have all the time and money in the world, what would you do?
I'll shop everyday till I drop and yeah, I'll buy over all the shopping malls in the world. and most importantly, I'll share my money and time with the needy.

11. When will you feel sad?
PMS. lol. When something sad happens or when somebody hurts me.

12. Balloons or Candy?
Candy!!! Candy!!!

13. What feelings you hate the most?
Disturbed. Cheated. Betrayed. Pain. Hurt.

14. What is your childhood ambition?
Doctor. Lawyer.

15. Do you believe in love at first sight?
yeah. But it's meant for Fairy Tales.

16. What do you want now?
I want to travel around the world. and I want you.

17. Who do you hope to be always behind you, supporting you?
My love ones. Friends. My dog? :)

18. People who are going to be hated by you?
Holding grudges against people? So not worth it.

19. Describe the person who tagged you in five words.
Noisy. Sweet. Caring. Amplifier. Loud

20. Do you deserve to be loved?
Every human neing deserves to be loved.

21. Do you wish to have more than 24 hours per day?
I need 48 hours per day. minimum.

I tag,
Anabel, Anthea, Brian, Eric and Enwei.

America Here I Come

The big FAT question that boggles

every high school students

WHERE TO AFTER SPM?

Today was Hari Kerjaya at school.

something happened. :)

I think God answered my prayers.

after 17 years finally.

haha.

Who are we to question God though.

I've always wanted to go to US and study

and migrate there.

so....Wai Kar and I went roaming around

from booth to booth yesterday.

Suddenly a little voice in me told me,

Elaine go to HELP's Booth.

strange. I went anyway.

I told the lady that I was interested

in a Business Degree.

So yadadadaa.....she went out about what HELP had to offer.

Suddenly,

She whipped out a brochure.

AMERICAN BUSINESS DEGREE.

When I saw the headings, my eyes nearly popped out.

now that's something I'm interested in.

She went on and explain about it all to me.

and for the first time that day

I felt that I so wanted to get a BUSINESS DEGREE.

The programme felt so right.

All I have to do now is wait for Daddy to get back from Kuching.

Convince him this is what I want to do.

and viola.

So I'm going to cross my fingers

and hope daddy agrees with me

and viola

I'll be off to FIRST year uni next year January!!!

That's not all.

The best thing is,

the uni is on the East Coast of US

& its next to NEW YORK!!!!!'

Yay... I love NY!!!!

Funny how things seem.

I really thank Lord Jesus for this.

Amen.

Happy 17'th Birthday Anabel

Ana&Laine

Anabel my dearest sesamee.
It's your b'day honey!!!!
You're 17....
meaning your legal. :)
go get your driving license.
i'm in desprate need of a driver. :)

Known this girl here for 5 years.
Still remember the time when i knew her.
She was shorter than me!!!!!
Now she's taller than me. boo.

She never fails to put a smile on your face.
She has her very own Anabelish style.
it's like her trademark.

She's fierce.
So don't mess around with her.

She's someone who just picks up the phone
and rambles on and on.........

She's my tai ka jie
so ana you better look after me
your little sis. :)
better keep in control.

A very strong girl
managed to face all her obstacles
with a strong attitude. :)

anabel yee hor yan.
you're like a great girlfriend
who's irreplacable. :)
love ya loads honey.

HAPPY 17 BIRTHDAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :)

love
Laine.
(onion)

Ps: All the colours are in the order of the rainbow you love soo much.

Kick It Hard

The clocks ticking,

there's 2 months left before trials kick in. *gasp*

everybody who sees me is always asking the same question.

"Elaine, studying hard aren't you? Make sure you live up to your parents expectations."

What do I have to say about this all?

nothing.

so this question has got my mind thinking hard.

Am i doing enough?

Guess the answer is...........i don't think so.

so from now on, I have to not only triple my efforts i have to triple ² my efforts. :)

went swimming just now.

I shall say mission accomplished.

the sun is friggin strong.

i have like a very prominent two tone colour shade skin now.

ugh.

I have like a mountain of hw waiting for me.

better get it done quick.

Procrastination exist in every students life.

so i guess i'm not guilty after all. :)

you did a good job!!!!

keep it up. :)

once we're done with you,

belanja makan.

That's all for your lesson fees.

Very cheap you know.

Baby You're Like My Rainbow

July has rolled along and all that is left of June is memories.

Sat by the clock wondering what July will bring about.

The only thing i could think of was

EXAMS ARE GETTING NEARER!!!

A quick recap on whats been happening in my life lately.

Coulnd't find time to actually sit down and blog.

seems like I don't have time for anything this days.

Including time for myself. :(

Time flies so fast.

When you want to treasure those moments

time seems to fly and the day seems to be over soo fast.

When it hurts and all you want and hope is that time will fly fast

it doesn't seem to.

Guess we humans are put here on Earth to

endure pain and hardship! ;)

SALE is here again.

Guess I won't be able to satisfy my shopaholic lust this time.

boo.

Thank God I was able to satisfy it for once.

gee. I bought a new handbag, this morning.

soo much for saving more money. ;)

spent less now, more to spent later!!

Good thing, save more money. :)

everday seems like there's a rainbow shinning at the end of it all.

I'll just hope and pray,

I'll catch the rainbow one day. :)

Wispers of Love

Funny how life comes about and goes about.
One moment, you thought that you've lost everything
the next, you find yourself gaining the whole world.

Completed my add maths project today. well kind of.
Leanne and Wai Kar practically well
thinks that my house is some kind of resort place where when there's a project to be done
it'll be laine's house they go to.
not complaining a bit though. Love them to bits.

Couldn't have gone through soo many things if they weren't there
when i needed someone.

Love. Seems to bring about happiness to one's life.
Funny how love can conquer one so much and well.
and as for now.
baby it's you I want tonight.

Goodbye Kiss

All it took was a simple phone call

that left me shocked and teared.

years have passesd and we both have moved on.

the fact that all this years you could not put me aside

shocked me the most

i thought we have both moved on

and what was left between us

was friendship, something no one could break.

when it came to you

i never played hard to get

instead you were the one playing the game all the while

and I went along with it.

I gave you all the time you needed.

I waited for you long enough.

but you were just to proud to admit your feelings.

time passed and the clock continues to click.

after all this while.

you summed up the courage to confess everything.

but baby, it's all too late.

i've waited long enough for you to say those words

but they bring no meaning to me now

for my heart belongs some where else.

it hurts to say,

but i've moved on in life.

it'll be hard for you

but i've done it.

I've accepted everything

so it's time for you to move on and put me a side

the way i've done it with you.

You'll always have a place in my heart.

All i have for you now

is just memories

and

finally,

A goodbye kiss.

Promises

School has started for a week. and yeap. the pressure is on. the stress is on.

i'haven been blogging lately. and due to lack of time. I'll just post something here.

hehe. suppose to be doing research.

you've taken my breath away. promises are not meant to be broken. we'll see how long we can go without breaking.
eveything when fresh and new delights us, will all this last or will it be like a flower, wilting as day and time passes?

Maniac

OMG. holidays are coming to an end. shit.
I think the only thing I've been doing this holls, is PROCASTINATING!!!

fcuk. I just realised my room is like a war zone. My sleeping room is like a pig sty. lol so much for me wanting two rooms in the first place. My wardrobe looks like a bomb just landed on it.

ugh. I have to start cleaning up before school starts. Once school starts, full nerd gear will be on.

I'm so frigging sleepy. Can't keep my eyes open. boo.

Raindrops

holidays are going to end. seems like I have been wasting a lot of time this holls. with the initial plans of spending money, study and bla...bla... sad to say, i've only achieved 1% of the initial plans. :( feeling bad about it.

All in all I've only seem to achieve the spending money part. lol.
Hope daddy doesn't see this, i've spent RM 700 over in less than two weeks. pfft.

nothing much has been happening this week. the weather seems to be down this days. rain non stop.

Laine has become a genius and she feels like a kid again. I'm stuck at home sick last night with fever. why? Laine played rain for two days non stop.

it's not a crime to be a kiddie at times....

i probably haven come to my senses about the fact i promised i won't play rain again.

June

June is here!!!!!

what a kick start I had to the new month.

I had a row with my mum this morning. It's becoming like a daily routine.

What the heck is our parents problems? all they do is make false assumptions about everything. and who the hell does her friends think thery are? telling her all sorts of rubbish that I have a bf and all. wtf?

I'm so frustrated and all. pfft.

Can I have a life of my own?

I feel like moving out of the house but i guess it's utterly impossible for now.

ps: thanks for being there when I needed someone to complain to. :) I've been a pretty good alarm clock haven i? thanks anyways!!!!!

It's coming to an end

All good things must come to an end. May has come and will be going and soon June will be greeting us. Half a year has passed. and yes. Shit. SPM is coming closer. :( boo.

cut the carbs. Elaine has officially gone aneroxic. She doesn't love food anymore.

yes, if you think i'm joking think twice.

everytime i lay my eyes on food, i feel like throwing up instantly. every bite i take, i feel like i'm putting too much carbs into my mouth. It feels great with every meal i manage too skip. the less i eat, the happier i become. :)

yes. I haven been eating properly since holidays started. skipping meals have been a daily routine. a bad one I guess.

oh-well. Elaine hates food for now.

When You Look Me In The Eye

having all the free time for now doesn't bring about any good as I hope it had. well i'm not exactly complaining and all but with all the time i've finally figured out my life or rather I hope i have done so. lol.

emotions are like a waterfall. They keep pouring over you like there's no tomorrow. you're stuck in my mind and soul. for a moment if anyone told me i'll fall for you when we first met, i'll say that the person is crazy and utterly mad. But now as time goes by and as the world keeps spinning, i've finally came to my senses.

it's getting crazier by the day. you're all over my mind. i just can't breathe, eat or sleep without even thinking about you. memories we have flow back like a slide show playing in my mind.

i wonder day by day. has all this started since you dropped the bombshell on me. i wish i had the answers to my questions. it seems all so strange and weird that i ould have actually fallen for you.

i'm utterly lost for words when it comes to you. i guess some thing were and are meant to be while some are just not.

probably we both need time. time to actually figure ourselves out and put out our old flames.

till then. we both know what we want.

Muddled

I'm all muddled up. Holidays are finally here but, I'm friggin bored.
so with all the free time in the world. my mind runs everywhere. every inch of my brain seems to be muddled up.

y must life be so complicated and all. things that you never expect to happen, comes dropping down on you like a bombshell.

i'm lost deep in thoughts.

guess we just have to make the best of life. :)

won't be blogging till saturday. daddy's taking my laptop outstation so ahhh. Going to miss you. :)

Exams

Pictures convey a thousand words. Let's see what exams can do to someone. Especially add maths paper 2. When you knda suck at it.

Freedom

WHOOTS!!!!!

exams are finally over. phew. Just can't describe how happy i am. It's like a big..Big..BIG burden has been lifted off my shoulders!
three weeks of exams. wow

Caffeine has been my best friend. keeping me awake at all times. sleepless nights where counting sheeps won't work. thinking of you didn't help either.

it's finally time the shopaholic is able to break free. I'm starting tomorrow!!!! Shopping!!!!
I know the way I said it that day sounded so white chick. lol. :)

daddy and mummy. better make sure you guys go to the bank and withdraw extra cash this month. Your darling princess is going to burn a hole in your pockets.

WEEEE!!!!!!!! i'm going shopping tomorrow!!!!

Will update later. Want to go watch teee veeee.
I have not watched tv for 2 MONTHS!!!!!!!!!

Countdown

The countdown. Yes. The BIG COUNTDOWN to the day where mid-term is over has started. two more days and whoots!!!!! wE'RE fREE!!!!!!!!!

Exams are driving me mad. soo mad, I just can't think straight let alone walk straight.

Tomorrow's paper. doesn't start too 12 so haha. I'll start studying in school. :) as for now..i'll just chill!!!!!!!!!

i miss you loads.

Heavenly Suntan

one more week down. and it's OvEr~!!!
gone are the days where I had to crack my head and stuff all sorts of info into it. bio..chem...add maths..sej...etc. well not are completed yet but, hey. the hard one's are finished!

friday was utter bliss. no worries about exams or whatever so for that day. :)

Saturday.
went to tropicana library and nerd and yes. there was helluva of DRAMA going on.
make things short and simple.

ana & I did the best thing ever done. we studied by the poolside with the oh so ever hot sun blazing on us. ppl though we were crazy but i guess we weren't.

main reason we were at the poolside and not at the lib. We both know and God knows.

we start the trends and we're not ppl who follows after ppl's footsteps. We set ours first. We're leaders. :)

I'm so tired. I'm fighting to keep my eyes open!!!! went swimming just now and I'm dead tired.

pfft. need to get back to nerding. moral awaits.

Being there

you were always there when i needed you.
always there to hold my hand in times of fear.
always there to put a smile on my face when I was down.
always there when i needed someone to talk too.

I guess i played to hard.
you tried but i was playing my way through.

if i could turn time back, things would be different.

i'm so lost and confused.

Making A Commitment

My brain is totally full and I'm unable to absorb anymore.

I find it really interesting when I flip through my church weekly bulletin and one section that always captures my attention is the column on B'days and Anniversaries. stated there are couples who will be celebrating their annivesary that week.

what's so interesting about that? well the big fat numbers that state how long they are married always amuses me. 45 years, 50 years, 60 years and so on..... How can a couple stay married for so long? or rather how can one stay married to their spouse for such a long period of time?

I basically just can't imagine how. lol. Maybe what Jason said was true. I'm probably just not ready for any commitments or such that may be true or maybe not. who knows? only God knows?

I really salute ppl who can actually stay married for so long. i can't even last a year in a relationship talk to me about say 30 years? lol.

Probably it's all about changing your mindset and all. oh wells. haha. we'll know when the time comes wouln't we?

elaine is going to run 5 km this sunday. i'm forced into this one. haha. it's some thing for asthma day. daddy's company is going to support so its a big COMPULSORY for all Director's to go including spouse and children. pfft. probably it'll do me good. i need the exercise and the fresh air. my skin's all crinkly due the fact that i sit in the a/c room 24/7 nerding. haha

I think what leanne says is true, I'm starting to get addicted to running marathons. oo.

One week down

First week of exam is over!

Bio paper 2, add maths paper 2, sejarah paper 2 in short, the killer subjects are completed well except for chemistry which is like the whole of next week. Oh wells, that I have plenty of time to do study. ;)

won't be having exams this Monday as it is Physics the whole day. yes, elaine doesn't take physics. You'll go phsyco studying it. all those gas laws and ugh...well I seem to have forgotten everything. oh wells just as well.

exams are really causing big tension.

Have an exam with terry tonight. :( just hope and pray for a miracle. that i'll be brain genius tonight.

Stress

Stress and exams are finally here to stay.
Funny as it may seems this mid term exam is going to be the last for us. :) sfter this, no more mid terms well for school level anyway. lol

Have been nerding alot but i still feel that I shouldn't have been so last minute. I'm sort of a person who doesn't really do well with last minute. oh well. i'll just do my very best then.

exams starts on tues and ends dunno when. so haha.

will be leaving my dear bloggie for a while till exams are done.

till then! Good Luck to everybody for exams and HAPPY NERDING.....

love,
lainey.

Sweet Victory

i've done it again. I participated and finished my Power Run today.
I clocked 63 min. 7 km. no 153 out of 400 over in my category. Whoots.
Today's route was so much more tougher than the one I ran during KL Marathon.. :) it was non-stop hills and up the hill and down the hill.

I was seriously unprepared mentally and physically. Halfway through, I nearly broke down and cried. I lost all the faith in myself.
The only thing that kept me going was............ lol.

The minute I saw the finishing line, I ran like there was no tomorrow. Daddy was there waiting for me and he was like "Run...run...faster..why so slow one? run...run...run...!!!!
Shoot. What sort of motivation is that? I ran and I finished the race.

All in all. I feel really really proud and happy with myself. I'm going to have to win my dad the next time round. I was slower than him like 15 minutes..... :) pfft.

I hate to admit this but I guess I have to :)
Ming Ping. You did a pretty good job at insulting me and asking me if I could run a marathon. I was all out to prove you wrong. Probably that was the inner voice in me that kept me going. Thanks. *grins*

Questions

A thousand thoughts have been flashing through my mind lately.
I feel so lost in the sea of unanswered questions.
When will I see the answers?

I guess we'll never know what will happen till we try.

Flying Away

Thats exactly what I'm dying to do right now. So much to do so little time.
Exams are just round the corner and the stress is building up.

Took study leave today. And yup I'm done with studying for the moment and I'm just hear to release STRESS. :)

This Sunday is DJ's sports day and everyone is geared up and all. But I on the other hand won't be there. I'll be someplace running a 7 km marathon. Have to start training again. *sighs* I just found out today that I'm going. :)

i'm just craving soo much for you, Big Apple and Canton-i egg tarts.

Picture Me Perfect

I'm using this pic for the school magazine! :)

Stupid thing altogether wanting it black and white. It's the digital colour age not the black and white stone age.
pfft.

Of Sore Throats and Swollen Tonsils

I have it all. My throat is killing me. My tonsils are red and burning like they're on FIRE. ouch.

The main cause?
I talked and laughed too much yesterday. Period.
Anabel salutes me! :)

I guess when you have not seen someone for like 3 months but it felt like 3 years you just can't stop gabbing non-stop. haha. I gabbed non stop in the morning till evening. Then at night, my girlfriend whom I've not spoken to for like a month called and we gabbed till our batteries went flat.

Had some really good heart-to-heart talks yesterday. Thanks babes! :)

In short, I laughed till my sides hurt. I gabbed till my throat couldn't handle it.

To add up to all. I've got my oral exam tomorrow. talk to me about it....

Seem to be really happy with myself this days. I can finally sit down with the book and really concentrate. Seems like there's a huge improvement. Thank God since exams are like 2 weeks away. hehe

I'm so far away and not even 0.01% being a nerd. I'm just so not a nerd. :)

on a random note.

Was asked to read this passage and was told that I'll learn to appreaciate myself even more.

Proverbs 30:30-31 (NIV)
Charm is deceptive, and beauty is fleeting;
but a woman who fears the LORD is to be
praised.
Give her the reward she has earned,
and let her works bring her praise at the city gate.

Girlfriends

I've finally gotten my drug today. I've finally gotten to go shopping.And the best thing is I finally got to see my friend Cheryl. The girl finally got back to Kl from Aus and we finally went out for what seems to be eternity since I last saw her. :)

It just felt like old times when we were sitting at Pick&Brew(one u) with her mum and chatting away like there's no tomorrow. haha. Really miss those times where we use to sit and talk for ages. non stop. We're good at it.

The stupidest part of the day. We decieded to go to Toys "R" Us for the fun of it. We have likes tons of memories there. The minute we stepped into that place, she was like "Elaine!!! Sponge Bob Square Pants!!! So cute!!!" ok. next. It was my turn. A few steps down the aisle I spotted Ernie. Sesamme Street. I squealed with delight and I was like "OMG!!!! I SO WANT THIS!!!" unfortunately we didn't get the soft toys as we both know what our mum's will say. :(

Practically, we were like kids again. I want that big ELMO soft toy!!!! :) I don't care.


I really thank God for a friend like her. Six years of friendship and we're still going strong. She's like the best girlfriend one can ever ask for. :)

We have like tons of fun memories together. Stupid things we use to do together. If we list them all out....we'll need to cut down 1 acre of trees. That shows how close we are.


Cheryl. You better stop growing taller or I'll be like a dwarf standing next to you! :) i don't want to be like you know who.haha. Stop growing slimmer. You make me look like a pig next to you.

LOVE YOU LOADS GIRLFRIEND!



This is my 70'th post and I'm dedicating it you Cheryl! :)

My Pride My Joy

Finally. it took me two whole days to finally chill down and forget about whatever that has happen.

Whoots!!!! Daddy got me my NOTEBOOK!!!!!! i was suppose to get it after SPM but then I pestered him everyday to buy it for me and in the end he gave up and bought it for me!!!! Love you loads daddy!

I never knew I was good at writting scripts. *Coughs* *Grins*
I finished writting the script for oral. oral exams not oral ahem. lol.
I was studying bio and then suddenly inspiartion hit me. I finished it in 40 minutes. not bad.

I'm so proud of myself. Seems like life's getting better. :)

Leaving a Legacy

Living a legacy. Such strong and meaningful words. Words that should be pondered upon.



Today's sermon at church, really caught my attention and I finally came to realise that leaving a legacy behind is indeed something really important and meaningful. You can actually leave a legacy behind by canging one's character or by just a simple act of faith and kindness.



Guess I'm going to start leaving a legacy. It's never to early to start!

ANGER

I'm really pissed off right now!!!!!!!!!!!
I feel like screaming, shouting and punching someone real hard.

I just HATE YOU!!!!

So anybody can't talk about your family right? Since is all so-oh-superior and all sorts of rubbish.

FYI. MY SURNAME IS CHIN AND THAT GIVES ME EVERY RIGHT IN THIS WORLD TO SAY WHAT I LIKE ABOUT YOU AND YOUR FAMILY!!!!!!!!!!!!

BECAUSE I HAVE THE SURNAME AND THAT MEANS I"M NOT ANYBODY BUT I"M YOUR FAMILY.

I JUST HATE EVERYTHING!!!!!!!!!!!!

I'm here just to vent my anger.

UGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Get A Life and Give us A Break

I clearly just don't understand some people especially somebody in particular. *coughs*.

why can't you just let go and live your own life? You're like an ass holding onto something that's not even yours anymore. Stop building castles in the air and get back to reality will you? You're just making him hate you more with the way you're acting. All so childish and brattish. If I would say.
Sometimes...I just want to slap you hard and make you wake up from this disfunctional dream of yours. I really do.

So what's up with the badmouth behind my back? Yup. I know..know..I'm just so intresting to talk about right? Miss ....! Seems to me you realised all the things that are going behind your back.

We all clearly know who's the one who has been updating you about everything. We know. We clearly do. We're not idiots.

I have a very good suggestion here for you. Leave all of us alone and all those around us. And pack your bags of to some far away island where you can lie and lie and lie and nobody will know anything. * the minute you leave, champagne,whisky,wine and vodka corks will be corked in conjuction withe our celebrations.*

So please. You and that little so called good friend of yours leave all of us alone and the two of you can stay in the same boat. We're not planning of joining you. We've got brains darling.

Sad to say. You just make it impossible for us not to b.... about you.

Period.

Ps: remember this. She once hated you. Watch your back.

Happy Seventeen Birthday Kashven!

Today marks a very special day for one of my very best friends, Kashven.
A very special person and definitely someone who plays a little and small significant role in my life.
3 years of friendship has brought us a long way. We fought. We bitched about others. Had all those heart-to-heart talks and all the girl stuff.
I really appreaciate all that she has done for me and I'll always remember those times.

Thanks a lot for everything.
YOu're 17!!!! Enjoy life to the fullest and make the best out of everything.
You're legal to drive and drink. So next time when I get back, you drive, we drink together. lol.

She's helluva one of those special girlfriends!!!!!

HAPPY SEVENTEEN BIRTHDAY KASHVEN!!!!!!

Ps: So much for good friends. I can't seem to locate the pics we have to gether.

Muakzz. Hugs and kisses.

Lainey.

Great Minds Think Alike

Funny it seems. Ppl say that when you're close with that someone, you think in line with that person. Well probably I have to finally believe some of that stuff.

I was sitting in the room watching tv and suddenly the phone rang. Butt glued to the sofa, I refused to get up and answer it. expecting it to be my mum's phone. Suddenly a thought came to my mind, what if it is Cheryl. She's comming back soon right. Sure enough. My mum shouted for me.
Guess who was on the line. CHERYL SAW!!!! I was like OMG!!!!OMG!!!!
hehe. She called from adelaide just to say she misses me and she's comming back this sat!!!!
She made my day. :)

Shit. I have a EST Presentation on Globalisation tomorrow. And it still seems like Greek and French. Globalisation is the movement of people, goods, capitals and ideas due to increased economic integration which in turn is propelled by increase trade and investment.

So Angsana, bear with me tomorrow. I'm going to give you ppl a presentation on French & Greek.

I've got You Figured Out.

I'm getting preety sick of everything . So I'll do a super random post here.
A walk into my bathroom and i just realised everything is so pink. except for the tiles on the wall. It's all pink from my tootbrush to the shower curtain to my towel. Welcome to my world of randomness.

it took me years and months to finally understand you. Now that i have, We're miles apart. Can't everybody be born lucky? It's like when we're together we never loved each other the way we love each other now.

Guess we always took things for granted and never cherished what we had at that point of time.

You're a part of me and I'll always be your other half. that's probably the only thing that's keeping us going.

I can't wait for May holls. I need to get out someplace because i need a really big break.

Most importantly I can't wait to see you! :)

Just can't get you out of my mind. You're like my ecstacy and vodka. Just the way I want it.

Highlight of the month. My gf is comming abck from Aus. Hopefully with a trunk load of hot looking aus guys and presents! Can't wait to see you Cheryl...really miss those heart-heart girl talks.

Playing Truant

I know...I know...April Fool was on Tuesday but I decieded to play a little prank and skip school today. really shocking considering a little "angel" like me.



So here I am sitting here blogging when I should be studying. :)



Elaine, buck up. Exams are round the corner so start fooloing around and study!!!!!!!! "nerding time" is here to stay.

Finishing The Race

Finally. I'm in some kind of good mood today so I'll blog seriously and not any one of those emo post.

30 March 2008.
KL Marathon. It seriously has been years since I've participated in a marathon. When I was not running druing the past years, I was my dad's very own personal cheerleader when he was running. Finally I've steped into my dad's shoes and I'll continue to make him proud.

Honestly, probably the main thing that actually motivated me to participate was the fact that we would actually get marks and a cert. hehe. my koko = 0. lol.

During those time of training at the gym & with friends, the adrenalin and the fun of running seems to flood back. At that time I knew, I could do it.

I was really motivated that day and I finished the race. 7 km in all. at first I lacked self-confidence but halfway through, Brian caught up with me and told me to run and don't give up. That really really motivated me. I ran and finish the race.

I could have done better and finish faster if it wasn't for my stupid fcu...shoes. The stupid sole's came out before the marthon. NIKE sucks. and mine's a real one not some stupid one that you buy in petaling street. mine's original from Singapore. Orchard road. talk to me about it. I've never even worn the shoes more than 100 times. pffft.

Boosting Ego's

Somewhere someplace, I must have lost my self esteem and confidence. I view myself as pretty much failure in everything I do and I never seems to accomplish and get anything out of what I do.

I tend to judge myself so much that I'm often demotivated by my own judgements. I'm totally obessed with everything that it actually breaks me.

Sometimes, it's like I'm living my life to impress others and not living life to the fullest. I try so hard and yet I never seem to be satistified with myself.

I struggle day in day out with something I've been battling for ages, but I never seem to achieve it. Do I really have to succumb to drastic measures?

I critise myself too often this days, till I actually get really down and my self esteeem seems to go down the drain.

Why can't I just be happy with who I am and let all critics and judgements wheeze past me and not affect me.

Everyday, I seem to be putting on a plastic smile. It's getting really hard to do so. Sometimes, I really want to want to break down and cry. But I never seem to be able to do so. Everything's just trap in me.

At times, I feel neglected and alone. I feel like I'm a living shadow. I seem to be invisible to all those around me.

I'm sick of putting on a happy face and plastic smile. I'm just soo sick of it.

People around me has already realised that I'm not the same perky person they all know. I hate to admit this but I'm just so fed up with everything, I've lost the meaning of life.

The happiness and the wonders of the world has all been lost along the way.

I'm juts so sick and fed up.

Period.

APRIL FOOL!!!

it's April already. and it's APRIL FOOL.

Better buck up elaine. Exams are round the corner and you better do well and make yourself proud.

Seems like April Fool this year is not as fun as others! :)

Summing up

School has started again and gone are the days of lying around, sleeping in late and being lazy. In short, holidays are over and school term is here to stay.

Holidays has been really good as I finally had the time to recharge my inner energy.

Exam results are back and it's not what I expected but still on the whole I'm quite ok with it. Guess we just have to learn to be satisfied with what we have and strive and aim to do better next time. :)

I finally came to realise that 24 hours in a day is not enough. I need at least 48 hours in a day. There's so much to do train for marathon, study and completing assignments and all yadadada.

So much to do so little time.

I hate it when I'm stuck in the middle of something. Everybody seems to start pointing fingers here and there. and you just don't know where to go or whose side to be on.

got to get back to soul searching on mitosis and meiosis. toodles!

Ticket to Freedom.

Does it make any difference since you're 17?
I'm just so frustrated with everything! Hell ya, I'm 17 this year but it seems to me that I've more life before I turned 17. I HATE IT!!!! Constant nagging about how much I go out everydayand yadadadada. I mean our parents were young once right? can't they just allow us to live our lives!

I'm just so fed up with everything. Sometimes I've even lost the meaning of life.

I want wings to fly. I need my freedom.

Period.

Exams Aftermath

Everthing seems so serene and tranquility seems to be flooding me this past few days eversince exams ended. Never the less I have have loaded with preparations of a function. :)

seems like this pile of workload that I have seems to keep my mind off a lot of thoughts and I'm really gratefull for that.

Jumper's a great movie but saddening enough I has to leave halfway during the show as I had some family discussion to go to so I had to leave. The movie is fab. It just makes you wish you could just jump from place to place and escape from all worries and miseries.

Have to go get back to the preparations.... :) Just hope and pray that everyone will have a blast!!!

Sitting by the window, waithing for you to appear. It's never easy but I'll wait. I love you more than anything in this world. You are apart of me and I'm apart of you. A year has past since we last saw each other, but We both know, our love never changed. I want you and I need you.

Lost

Whoots!!!! Exams are finally over and done with!!!!!...sad to say it's only first term. :(
Now exams are finally over, I can finally sit back and relax for a while.
No more hard core studying..no more everything...for a while till mid-term.

I feel so lost in this world.
At times I question myself, does my existence in this world mean anything? Do I mean anything to anybody? What's my purpose for living?

Questions and thoughts. All these play a constant game in my mind. Suicidal has been on my mind. and I really hope it doesn't come back to me again. I hate it. All I want is answers to my thoughts and questions.

I'm just sooo lost and confused.

It's All About Me, Exams and Books.

Exam fever is here and is here to stay till Wednesday!
It's been non-stop nerding and hard-core studying this past few days.
Ugh. My concentration enzymes seems to be only most active after 7 pm before that, it's totally denatured! :) Seems like it needs to be at room temperature to react rapidly.

I don't seem to feel the studying kick in me as my papers don't start again until Tues. :)

Can't wait for exams to finish!!!! I'm like rotting at home. The ads in the newspapers are just so tempting!!!! Everywhere is having biggie reductions and I'm stuck at home, studying with my books. :( Everything seems to tempting......food..shopping...name it all!!!!

Today is the 1'st of March and this is my 50'th post...lol...blogging indeed is addictive. :)

Random things:
1. I have not been watching tv for a week.
2. There's stiil 256 days to SPM.
3. I'm craving for Big Apple...
4. Anabel dreamt that me,she,wai kar, kee chong,jon. all of us were swimming at Sunway playing with seawhales. lol.

Today is a start of a new month. hope this is a new begining. I'm sick of waiting. I want to make dreams realities.