New Year Resolutions

Hello world. =) in 4 more hours, we shall say goodbye to 2009 and Hello 2010.
2009 has been one good year and I hope that 2010 would even be better. =)

2010 brings about a new chapter in my life and to the life of others.

Come 11 jan 2010, I would officially be a first year LAW student of Uni Of Reading, UK. and this marks the awesome begining of my career as a lawyer! Finally childhood dream ACHIEVED.

31 December 2009

the day is not over yet but oh wells, i think I had a great time today. A day that has maked me satisfied and contented with the way i choose to end the year. Finally satisfied my cravings of SUBWAY todayyyy and a very sinful indulgence of Baskin Robbins. Oh wells, its NYE a girl is allowed some fun on her tastebuds right? =D thanks for comming along. and and I coulnd't even eat dinner just now. my Stomach is like BLOATED. ugh. =(

NEW YEAR RESOLUTIONS. =)

have a GREAT LONG LIST but shall post the top ones in my list here as A REMINDER. =D

1. NO PROCASTINATING

and so this word exist in everyone's life. oh wells I shall choose to Kick it aside and say GOODBYE to the days where assignments are completed the day before it is due. =)

2. No more UNECESSARY LATE NIGHTS

gee. this is something I am guilty off. lights off at 3 am daily? LOOLs. i cant afford that because I wont wanna be sleeping in lectures or sleeping while driving. =s

3. NO MORE SHOPPING SPREES.

no more SHOPPING SPREES till many many months later. the amount i spent this holidays? SHOCKINg. enough to feed people for 6 months. =(

4. SELF CONTROL

ugh been loosing my temper very easily this days and so it's time to CONTROL and CONTROL and CONTROL. =) Bury the cat in the bag when I need too.

5. Be a NICER PERSON.

=) am already nice enough but No i should be less mean. =/

my top 5 NY resolutions. better make sure I keep it as for the rest I shall just keep it where its save and sound. =)

A Shoutout to all. =D

kepada semua orang di luar situ, saya ingin meminta maaf kepada semua atas kesalahan saya atau perbuatan saya yang telah menyinggung perassan kalian.

Saya ingin meminta ampuan daripada semua pada hari ini. Semoga saya dimaafkan dan segala yang pahit, sila buangkan dan hanya tinggalkan yang manis. =D

k my BM sucks already. =( must practice using it if not next time I shall just look at the judge and smile and Say Oh saya yea sudah lupa macam mana mau cakap BM, saya cakap english boleh? And wheee I shall get kicked out of the courtroom. =D

I need to go get ready already for COUNTDOWN. +D can't wait to see everyone. =D

update after new year

&

HAPPY NEW YEAR WORLD!

Ramblings

You know how they always say let it go and don't carry things into the New Year? i shall do that right now. RAMBLE RAMBLE RAMBLE all I want too then POOFF bye bye. =)

I totally hate it when adults think that we the younger TEENY BOPPER generation are a bunch of immature group of people. Please think twice. At the age of 18 we are all already LEGAL in the eye's of the law. So we're not a bunch of COW HEAD people who would allow you to say whatever you want to our face just because you think you're older and WHAT you have more COW BRAINS?



I hate doing stuff like that but sometimes you just have to be A TOTAL BITCH and not be nice to everyone and anyone because sooner or later someone woud just take advantage of you and spit back in your face.



I mean just because you think, oh I'm a parent and oh i have a BLOODY degree, I have the right to OH AWESOMELY show off my SKILLS and spit at your face? hey Sir you've gotta the wrong girl sorry. So just because you think that OHHH what is this girl, a "leng mui" 18 years only i can say or do anything or command or whatever? HELLO. Look again. If you think I'm your typical kinda ohhh so scared of parents kinda thing guess you got the wrong girl alone.

Oh so you think that I'm daddy's little girl like your daugther? HAHA. wrong girl again.


Why do you think I have the capability of being a Lawyer? not becase I can memorise cases from A-Z and all. to become one, it takes Skill and passion and its a talent born into us. You think that i would actually be SCARED just because you kinda tried to threatened me in some way or the other? hey and you think that you're so GREAT?



Sorry MR. you better please think twice next time before you open you GODDAM MOUTH. not that I was scared of you or anything, i was just being NICE by not giving you what you deserve straight to your face.



And anyway as for people like you, oh wells no reason for me to get angry or hurt by you. i dont need more Wrinkles like your wrinkled face. No thanks please. =)



SO THERE IT IS ALL OUT....... =D

hahahahahahahhahahaahahhahahaha

you looked like this to me just now. =D

A Time For Reflection

Four more days left to the time we say goodbye to 2009 and say hello to 2010.

I woke up this am with such a heavy heart and emotions of a dead person. and I wondered why. It was as though someone had put me through an emotional tribulence that I do not need and want to face. and I wonder why this has to happen now.

The time has come now again for reflection, the time to look back at the year and ponder upon our thoughts, actions.

When the year 2009 started, it was a new begining and chapter of my life one that marked my journey through pre-U. The road was a very rocky one, having to balance and adapt to the new place, environment, new study scheme and all. I made it through but then alot had happened to make it through the year.

The roller coaster ride of emotions started of with a big spin off. I didnt know I could even survive through it all. but I did in the end. It was indeed a time of pain and suffering trying to get over things. Some people say that tears can make things better somehow the tears could never come making thigns even worst. it was like a mental torture.

There was only one way I knew that could make me forget things. BOOKS. ok I know it sounds NERDISH but heck it worked. I was so occupied with my work till it became the best remedy I have ever found.

As time went on, the feelings became to fade even more, it was like a mere shawdow following me one that was getting smaller as the light became brighter. Soon there were so much happening around me that I could not even find the time and moments to think about it. At that point I thought I had letten go.

But somehow or the other, as if it was a prank I discovered alot of new things that I didnt even know myself. i knew if i did not take on the role of an assasin and get rid of whats left, i was bound to suffer another period of pain and suffering. Someway or the other by the grace of the Lord i managed to do so slowly. The scar began to peel and the scabs began to fall and indeed the wound was starting to heal.

I thank God for my friends who were there for me holding me through the whole way. I knew it that it was all finally over.

The whole time I was so caught up with my life I never had time to actually sit down and observe and reflect.

It was until the pass few weeks that things began to change, changing things for the better and it was as though a BIG BURDEN has been lifted off my shoulders.

But today why do I sit here with this heavy heart and thoughts. Its as though I seem guilty of something which i did not even commit. I wish someone could tell me why.

I can now finally place you and close you in the Chapters of 2009 and keep it aside on the shelf. a chapter that has finally closed and be done with. the friendship that we share now is indeed one that I will treasure.

and when 2010 comes along, I can now open a fresh new page and pen down a new story.

there's still many areas for refelction but for now, this chapter is closed. and indeed I am glad and happy that a new begining can now come along.

i hope i can make things right this time.

Missing you deeply.

A year has past since you left,

but yet it seems like you're still a part of me.

I still long for you sometimes and miss you and wish you were here with me all this time.

you were always there for me

a pillow to cry on

someone to share good and sad times.

I miss the way you use to be my alarm clock

i use to hate it but

now that you're gone, i wish i could do anything to have you back as my alarm clock.

I miss the sounds of your footsteps everwhere

scaring me all the way sometimes.

I miss the way how I use to laugh at you being the biggest Ah Long ever.

the fact that i always had to share my food with you

and even worst sometimes

MY BED.

when you left,

it was as if my whole world collapsed.

i was numb and sick

i didnt know how i could continue without you.

1 year has passed

and your belongings still remain untouched

its as if or as though no one wants to move it

because deep inside we all miss you still.

I hope that what is said in the book "Heaven Is So Real"

that you will be at the fields in Heaven

where no form of pain or suffering exist.

to my dearest dog, Dobby

i love you alot and indeed i do miss you alot.

i wish you were here right now

to lick me and kiss me the way you always do.

and dear girl,

you're irreplacable.

And indeed Miracles Do happen. <3

My BLOG is indeed dead. =) updates updates updates!!!!!!!!


Basically there's too much to update here so I shall just choose the most significant ones to blogg about.

2 December 2009


The day was spent with Li Tjen, Jessica, Jason and Gui Fen. watched New Moon for the 2'nd time and it would be indeed my last time. The only best part of it was looking at Tjen's face and expressions when she saw Edward Cullen's awesome DISTORTED nipples. =) aww there went all her fantasies about her HOT BAYBEH. =/

Managed to satisfy our cravings for waffles and and SHOPPING. =)))

jessica, li tjen, gui fen & me

then then I had a MUM free zone house for likee 1 week. AWESOMEENESS. though it doesn't really matter to me anymore sincee NOW i have my license to freedom. =/

7 December

Something must have went wrong with my head that day, I decided to SNIP of all my most treaured long hair. =s it's been like 7 years ago since I had hair this short now. =/ but oh well as they say, changes are always good sometimes. =)

9 December

Spent the afternoon with Wai Kar and watched LOVE HAPPENS. another typical romance chick flick kinda moviee. and and for the first time that night, I cooked dinner and it TASTED like superr awesome. =/ and NO I didnt burn the kitchen or burnt the oven. =)


12 December



Another GREAT GREAT DAY. =) and so finally afterr a VERY LONG TIME. the 4 girls mananged to meet up. =D Lunch was at Ikea because our dearest Wai Kar wanted Meatballs and and yeaa being the typical and usual her, she arrived likeee 1 hour late. =/ I can officially daresay that CURVE is a VERY FRIGGIN boring place and so we headed off to OU. AGAIN. haha.


The best part of the day was when Ana and I were in the parking lot, she was driving my car and and we were searching for a parking lot. and and all of a sudden we SAW a couple that looked like our DEAR GOOD FRIENDS and we sped of thinking it was them and wanting to stalk them, but alas CHEH it was just two lookalikes. HAHA.




14 December


This was ONE FREAKY FREAKY DAY, long long story but yea it was indeed a day where I recieved and was blessed with God's blessings. the night before a friend told me that places at for Law at Reading was being snapped up FAST and at that time I have not EVEN REGISTERED at all. =.= Woke up in the am, phoned Taylors and they told me there was ONLY 3 MORE PLACES left. FAINTS and I knew this was for REAL as my intake had a limited places of 31 places only.


Thank goodness, Mummy drove and we sped of to Taylors. If I was the one driving, I dont know what would have happened. I was so so scared that there wouldn't be any places left. I could have KILLED myself if all the places were taken up.


The minute I got my CONDITIONAL offer letter and paid the fees, I was SO HAPPY i could scream for JOY. haha but i knew ehh results also must meet the requirements.


Affternoon was spent at Zx's place gatecrashing her "MOMENTS". =)






16 December 2009


The most meaningfull day ever in my life and for the year 2009. SAM results was RELEASED. ahhha. so I have been freaking out for the past 2 weeks worried about the outcome. and and so on Tuesday night, GAH it was onee sleepless night. and and it was seriously the first time I was going to face reality obtaining results online. WHOOSH, at 6.30 am sharp the alarm rang and with nervous hands and muffled prayers, I logged in to get my results. AND WOW I SCREAMED so LOUD the whole neighbourhood could have heard me!


My SAM results brought about alot of signigicance,


1. I made into Reading U.
2. I'm going to get a scholarship from Taylors.


I think what they say is true, SPM results doesn't really mean alot. So what if I may have screwed my SPM but now what matters most is my SAM results. So I guess it was INDEED a very big reward. =) I gave up my whole social life this year I gave everything up for my results and so I have been rewarded. WHEEEE. =)


Okie, so maybe my results are not as GOOD as the rest but oh wells, I am satisfied and contented with it!


Celebration was with Li Tjen, Jessica and Jason. We had our karoke session and oh boi this was one good session. not only this was my first time, (okay JACKOON i know) we had a real good laugh.

Long story to explain what happened but yea, this is a sniplet of what happened. HAHAHAHAH.


"*screams some cantonese mumbo jumbo* YOU KNOW I CAN SUE YOU!?!?! *screams some law mumbo jumbo*" HAHAHAHAHA friggin hilarious!!!


17 December


Finally afterr like so LONG i got to hang out with LEANNE. =)))))))))))))))))))))) okie I swear the next time I'm going out with her I am not bringing any cash or whatsoever. She has this ability to make me spent money. not that I'm complaining or what I haven really been buying much this season. and within like 3 hours she made me spent ALOT more than intended. UGH.


but oh wells, so we gossiped and laughed like LUNATICS. awesomeeness just being able to be with her. =/


and and so for now, I shall just indulge myself in Gong Sam Gai which I have neglected for a few days now! haha. =))