Summing up

School has started again and gone are the days of lying around, sleeping in late and being lazy. In short, holidays are over and school term is here to stay.

Holidays has been really good as I finally had the time to recharge my inner energy.

Exam results are back and it's not what I expected but still on the whole I'm quite ok with it. Guess we just have to learn to be satisfied with what we have and strive and aim to do better next time. :)

I finally came to realise that 24 hours in a day is not enough. I need at least 48 hours in a day. There's so much to do train for marathon, study and completing assignments and all yadadada.

So much to do so little time.

I hate it when I'm stuck in the middle of something. Everybody seems to start pointing fingers here and there. and you just don't know where to go or whose side to be on.

got to get back to soul searching on mitosis and meiosis. toodles!

Ticket to Freedom.

Does it make any difference since you're 17?
I'm just so frustrated with everything! Hell ya, I'm 17 this year but it seems to me that I've more life before I turned 17. I HATE IT!!!! Constant nagging about how much I go out everydayand yadadadada. I mean our parents were young once right? can't they just allow us to live our lives!

I'm just so fed up with everything. Sometimes I've even lost the meaning of life.

I want wings to fly. I need my freedom.

Period.

Exams Aftermath

Everthing seems so serene and tranquility seems to be flooding me this past few days eversince exams ended. Never the less I have have loaded with preparations of a function. :)

seems like this pile of workload that I have seems to keep my mind off a lot of thoughts and I'm really gratefull for that.

Jumper's a great movie but saddening enough I has to leave halfway during the show as I had some family discussion to go to so I had to leave. The movie is fab. It just makes you wish you could just jump from place to place and escape from all worries and miseries.

Have to go get back to the preparations.... :) Just hope and pray that everyone will have a blast!!!

Sitting by the window, waithing for you to appear. It's never easy but I'll wait. I love you more than anything in this world. You are apart of me and I'm apart of you. A year has past since we last saw each other, but We both know, our love never changed. I want you and I need you.

Lost

Whoots!!!! Exams are finally over and done with!!!!!...sad to say it's only first term. :(
Now exams are finally over, I can finally sit back and relax for a while.
No more hard core studying..no more everything...for a while till mid-term.

I feel so lost in this world.
At times I question myself, does my existence in this world mean anything? Do I mean anything to anybody? What's my purpose for living?

Questions and thoughts. All these play a constant game in my mind. Suicidal has been on my mind. and I really hope it doesn't come back to me again. I hate it. All I want is answers to my thoughts and questions.

I'm just sooo lost and confused.

It's All About Me, Exams and Books.

Exam fever is here and is here to stay till Wednesday!
It's been non-stop nerding and hard-core studying this past few days.
Ugh. My concentration enzymes seems to be only most active after 7 pm before that, it's totally denatured! :) Seems like it needs to be at room temperature to react rapidly.

I don't seem to feel the studying kick in me as my papers don't start again until Tues. :)

Can't wait for exams to finish!!!! I'm like rotting at home. The ads in the newspapers are just so tempting!!!! Everywhere is having biggie reductions and I'm stuck at home, studying with my books. :( Everything seems to tempting......food..shopping...name it all!!!!

Today is the 1'st of March and this is my 50'th post...lol...blogging indeed is addictive. :)

Random things:
1. I have not been watching tv for a week.
2. There's stiil 256 days to SPM.
3. I'm craving for Big Apple...
4. Anabel dreamt that me,she,wai kar, kee chong,jon. all of us were swimming at Sunway playing with seawhales. lol.

Today is a start of a new month. hope this is a new begining. I'm sick of waiting. I want to make dreams realities.

You're All I've Ever Wanted and Needed.

The game of love is never a easy one.
Once you start, there's no turning back.
Everytime I look and think of you, I'll always wonder when I'll win this battle of Love.

Everything seems so tough when I'm the one playing the game right now.
a game of chase for a child is time of fun, but for me, it seems like I'm chasing eternity.
Sometimes, I feel so defeated and I just want to stop. it seems so hard. My heart and brain and the inner voice in me tells me otherwise.

I look and reflect at myself and ask myself what's all this about? But I never seem to find the answer for maybe the answer lies in you.

Nothing seems to be going my way. I guess everything is just so wrong.
There's those who love me out there but I choose to turn them down for all I want is you. But it seems like I'm fooling and kidding myself.

All I need is you.

When You're Gone

I guess emotions are on my side today. Never realised that this song actually existed in my playlist till I stumbled upon it while think of you. My mind is just so distracted.


I always needed time on my own
I never thought I'd need you there when I cry
And the days felt like years when I'm alone
And the bed where you lie
Is made up on your side

When you walk away
I count the steps that you take
Did you see how much I need you right now?

When you're gone
The pieces of my heart are missing you
When you're gone
The face I came to know is missing too
When you're gone
The words I need to hear to always get me through the day
And make it OK
I miss you

I've never felt this way before
Everything that I do
And the clothes you left
they lie on my floor
And they smell just like you
I love the things that you do

When you walk away
I count the steps that you take

Did you see how much I need you right now?
When you're gone
The pieces of my heart are missing you
When you're gone
The face I came to know is missing too
And when you're gone
The words I need to hear to always get me through the day
And make it OK
I miss you.

We were made for each other
Out here forever
I know we were
Yeah Yeah

All I ever wanted it was for you to know
Everything I do I give my heart and soul
I can hardly breathe, I need to feel you here with me
Yeah

When you're gone
The pieces of my heart are missing you
When you're gone
The face I came to know is missing too
When you're gone
The words I need to hear will always get me through the day
And make it OK
I miss you

You're my everything & you mean the world to me.