It's coming to an end

All good things must come to an end. May has come and will be going and soon June will be greeting us. Half a year has passed. and yes. Shit. SPM is coming closer. :( boo.

cut the carbs. Elaine has officially gone aneroxic. She doesn't love food anymore.

yes, if you think i'm joking think twice.

everytime i lay my eyes on food, i feel like throwing up instantly. every bite i take, i feel like i'm putting too much carbs into my mouth. It feels great with every meal i manage too skip. the less i eat, the happier i become. :)

yes. I haven been eating properly since holidays started. skipping meals have been a daily routine. a bad one I guess.

oh-well. Elaine hates food for now.

When You Look Me In The Eye

having all the free time for now doesn't bring about any good as I hope it had. well i'm not exactly complaining and all but with all the time i've finally figured out my life or rather I hope i have done so. lol.

emotions are like a waterfall. They keep pouring over you like there's no tomorrow. you're stuck in my mind and soul. for a moment if anyone told me i'll fall for you when we first met, i'll say that the person is crazy and utterly mad. But now as time goes by and as the world keeps spinning, i've finally came to my senses.

it's getting crazier by the day. you're all over my mind. i just can't breathe, eat or sleep without even thinking about you. memories we have flow back like a slide show playing in my mind.

i wonder day by day. has all this started since you dropped the bombshell on me. i wish i had the answers to my questions. it seems all so strange and weird that i ould have actually fallen for you.

i'm utterly lost for words when it comes to you. i guess some thing were and are meant to be while some are just not.

probably we both need time. time to actually figure ourselves out and put out our old flames.

till then. we both know what we want.

Muddled

I'm all muddled up. Holidays are finally here but, I'm friggin bored.
so with all the free time in the world. my mind runs everywhere. every inch of my brain seems to be muddled up.

y must life be so complicated and all. things that you never expect to happen, comes dropping down on you like a bombshell.

i'm lost deep in thoughts.

guess we just have to make the best of life. :)

won't be blogging till saturday. daddy's taking my laptop outstation so ahhh. Going to miss you. :)

Exams

Pictures convey a thousand words. Let's see what exams can do to someone. Especially add maths paper 2. When you knda suck at it.

Freedom

WHOOTS!!!!!

exams are finally over. phew. Just can't describe how happy i am. It's like a big..Big..BIG burden has been lifted off my shoulders!
three weeks of exams. wow

Caffeine has been my best friend. keeping me awake at all times. sleepless nights where counting sheeps won't work. thinking of you didn't help either.

it's finally time the shopaholic is able to break free. I'm starting tomorrow!!!! Shopping!!!!
I know the way I said it that day sounded so white chick. lol. :)

daddy and mummy. better make sure you guys go to the bank and withdraw extra cash this month. Your darling princess is going to burn a hole in your pockets.

WEEEE!!!!!!!! i'm going shopping tomorrow!!!!

Will update later. Want to go watch teee veeee.
I have not watched tv for 2 MONTHS!!!!!!!!!

Countdown

The countdown. Yes. The BIG COUNTDOWN to the day where mid-term is over has started. two more days and whoots!!!!! wE'RE fREE!!!!!!!!!

Exams are driving me mad. soo mad, I just can't think straight let alone walk straight.

Tomorrow's paper. doesn't start too 12 so haha. I'll start studying in school. :) as for now..i'll just chill!!!!!!!!!

i miss you loads.

Heavenly Suntan

one more week down. and it's OvEr~!!!
gone are the days where I had to crack my head and stuff all sorts of info into it. bio..chem...add maths..sej...etc. well not are completed yet but, hey. the hard one's are finished!

friday was utter bliss. no worries about exams or whatever so for that day. :)

Saturday.
went to tropicana library and nerd and yes. there was helluva of DRAMA going on.
make things short and simple.

ana & I did the best thing ever done. we studied by the poolside with the oh so ever hot sun blazing on us. ppl though we were crazy but i guess we weren't.

main reason we were at the poolside and not at the lib. We both know and God knows.

we start the trends and we're not ppl who follows after ppl's footsteps. We set ours first. We're leaders. :)

I'm so tired. I'm fighting to keep my eyes open!!!! went swimming just now and I'm dead tired.

pfft. need to get back to nerding. moral awaits.

Being there

you were always there when i needed you.
always there to hold my hand in times of fear.
always there to put a smile on my face when I was down.
always there when i needed someone to talk too.

I guess i played to hard.
you tried but i was playing my way through.

if i could turn time back, things would be different.

i'm so lost and confused.

Making A Commitment

My brain is totally full and I'm unable to absorb anymore.

I find it really interesting when I flip through my church weekly bulletin and one section that always captures my attention is the column on B'days and Anniversaries. stated there are couples who will be celebrating their annivesary that week.

what's so interesting about that? well the big fat numbers that state how long they are married always amuses me. 45 years, 50 years, 60 years and so on..... How can a couple stay married for so long? or rather how can one stay married to their spouse for such a long period of time?

I basically just can't imagine how. lol. Maybe what Jason said was true. I'm probably just not ready for any commitments or such that may be true or maybe not. who knows? only God knows?

I really salute ppl who can actually stay married for so long. i can't even last a year in a relationship talk to me about say 30 years? lol.

Probably it's all about changing your mindset and all. oh wells. haha. we'll know when the time comes wouln't we?

elaine is going to run 5 km this sunday. i'm forced into this one. haha. it's some thing for asthma day. daddy's company is going to support so its a big COMPULSORY for all Director's to go including spouse and children. pfft. probably it'll do me good. i need the exercise and the fresh air. my skin's all crinkly due the fact that i sit in the a/c room 24/7 nerding. haha

I think what leanne says is true, I'm starting to get addicted to running marathons. oo.

One week down

First week of exam is over!

Bio paper 2, add maths paper 2, sejarah paper 2 in short, the killer subjects are completed well except for chemistry which is like the whole of next week. Oh wells, that I have plenty of time to do study. ;)

won't be having exams this Monday as it is Physics the whole day. yes, elaine doesn't take physics. You'll go phsyco studying it. all those gas laws and ugh...well I seem to have forgotten everything. oh wells just as well.

exams are really causing big tension.

Have an exam with terry tonight. :( just hope and pray for a miracle. that i'll be brain genius tonight.

Stress

Stress and exams are finally here to stay.
Funny as it may seems this mid term exam is going to be the last for us. :) sfter this, no more mid terms well for school level anyway. lol

Have been nerding alot but i still feel that I shouldn't have been so last minute. I'm sort of a person who doesn't really do well with last minute. oh well. i'll just do my very best then.

exams starts on tues and ends dunno when. so haha.

will be leaving my dear bloggie for a while till exams are done.

till then! Good Luck to everybody for exams and HAPPY NERDING.....

love,
lainey.