Sweet Victory

i've done it again. I participated and finished my Power Run today.
I clocked 63 min. 7 km. no 153 out of 400 over in my category. Whoots.
Today's route was so much more tougher than the one I ran during KL Marathon.. :) it was non-stop hills and up the hill and down the hill.

I was seriously unprepared mentally and physically. Halfway through, I nearly broke down and cried. I lost all the faith in myself.
The only thing that kept me going was............ lol.

The minute I saw the finishing line, I ran like there was no tomorrow. Daddy was there waiting for me and he was like "Run...run...faster..why so slow one? run...run...run...!!!!
Shoot. What sort of motivation is that? I ran and I finished the race.

All in all. I feel really really proud and happy with myself. I'm going to have to win my dad the next time round. I was slower than him like 15 minutes..... :) pfft.

I hate to admit this but I guess I have to :)
Ming Ping. You did a pretty good job at insulting me and asking me if I could run a marathon. I was all out to prove you wrong. Probably that was the inner voice in me that kept me going. Thanks. *grins*

Questions

A thousand thoughts have been flashing through my mind lately.
I feel so lost in the sea of unanswered questions.
When will I see the answers?

I guess we'll never know what will happen till we try.

Flying Away

Thats exactly what I'm dying to do right now. So much to do so little time.
Exams are just round the corner and the stress is building up.

Took study leave today. And yup I'm done with studying for the moment and I'm just hear to release STRESS. :)

This Sunday is DJ's sports day and everyone is geared up and all. But I on the other hand won't be there. I'll be someplace running a 7 km marathon. Have to start training again. *sighs* I just found out today that I'm going. :)

i'm just craving soo much for you, Big Apple and Canton-i egg tarts.

Picture Me Perfect

I'm using this pic for the school magazine! :)

Stupid thing altogether wanting it black and white. It's the digital colour age not the black and white stone age.
pfft.

Of Sore Throats and Swollen Tonsils

I have it all. My throat is killing me. My tonsils are red and burning like they're on FIRE. ouch.

The main cause?
I talked and laughed too much yesterday. Period.
Anabel salutes me! :)

I guess when you have not seen someone for like 3 months but it felt like 3 years you just can't stop gabbing non-stop. haha. I gabbed non stop in the morning till evening. Then at night, my girlfriend whom I've not spoken to for like a month called and we gabbed till our batteries went flat.

Had some really good heart-to-heart talks yesterday. Thanks babes! :)

In short, I laughed till my sides hurt. I gabbed till my throat couldn't handle it.

To add up to all. I've got my oral exam tomorrow. talk to me about it....

Seem to be really happy with myself this days. I can finally sit down with the book and really concentrate. Seems like there's a huge improvement. Thank God since exams are like 2 weeks away. hehe

I'm so far away and not even 0.01% being a nerd. I'm just so not a nerd. :)

on a random note.

Was asked to read this passage and was told that I'll learn to appreaciate myself even more.

Proverbs 30:30-31 (NIV)
Charm is deceptive, and beauty is fleeting;
but a woman who fears the LORD is to be
praised.
Give her the reward she has earned,
and let her works bring her praise at the city gate.

Girlfriends

I've finally gotten my drug today. I've finally gotten to go shopping.And the best thing is I finally got to see my friend Cheryl. The girl finally got back to Kl from Aus and we finally went out for what seems to be eternity since I last saw her. :)

It just felt like old times when we were sitting at Pick&Brew(one u) with her mum and chatting away like there's no tomorrow. haha. Really miss those times where we use to sit and talk for ages. non stop. We're good at it.

The stupidest part of the day. We decieded to go to Toys "R" Us for the fun of it. We have likes tons of memories there. The minute we stepped into that place, she was like "Elaine!!! Sponge Bob Square Pants!!! So cute!!!" ok. next. It was my turn. A few steps down the aisle I spotted Ernie. Sesamme Street. I squealed with delight and I was like "OMG!!!! I SO WANT THIS!!!" unfortunately we didn't get the soft toys as we both know what our mum's will say. :(

Practically, we were like kids again. I want that big ELMO soft toy!!!! :) I don't care.


I really thank God for a friend like her. Six years of friendship and we're still going strong. She's like the best girlfriend one can ever ask for. :)

We have like tons of fun memories together. Stupid things we use to do together. If we list them all out....we'll need to cut down 1 acre of trees. That shows how close we are.


Cheryl. You better stop growing taller or I'll be like a dwarf standing next to you! :) i don't want to be like you know who.haha. Stop growing slimmer. You make me look like a pig next to you.

LOVE YOU LOADS GIRLFRIEND!



This is my 70'th post and I'm dedicating it you Cheryl! :)

My Pride My Joy

Finally. it took me two whole days to finally chill down and forget about whatever that has happen.

Whoots!!!! Daddy got me my NOTEBOOK!!!!!! i was suppose to get it after SPM but then I pestered him everyday to buy it for me and in the end he gave up and bought it for me!!!! Love you loads daddy!

I never knew I was good at writting scripts. *Coughs* *Grins*
I finished writting the script for oral. oral exams not oral ahem. lol.
I was studying bio and then suddenly inspiartion hit me. I finished it in 40 minutes. not bad.

I'm so proud of myself. Seems like life's getting better. :)

Leaving a Legacy

Living a legacy. Such strong and meaningful words. Words that should be pondered upon.



Today's sermon at church, really caught my attention and I finally came to realise that leaving a legacy behind is indeed something really important and meaningful. You can actually leave a legacy behind by canging one's character or by just a simple act of faith and kindness.



Guess I'm going to start leaving a legacy. It's never to early to start!

ANGER

I'm really pissed off right now!!!!!!!!!!!
I feel like screaming, shouting and punching someone real hard.

I just HATE YOU!!!!

So anybody can't talk about your family right? Since is all so-oh-superior and all sorts of rubbish.

FYI. MY SURNAME IS CHIN AND THAT GIVES ME EVERY RIGHT IN THIS WORLD TO SAY WHAT I LIKE ABOUT YOU AND YOUR FAMILY!!!!!!!!!!!!

BECAUSE I HAVE THE SURNAME AND THAT MEANS I"M NOT ANYBODY BUT I"M YOUR FAMILY.

I JUST HATE EVERYTHING!!!!!!!!!!!!

I'm here just to vent my anger.

UGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Get A Life and Give us A Break

I clearly just don't understand some people especially somebody in particular. *coughs*.

why can't you just let go and live your own life? You're like an ass holding onto something that's not even yours anymore. Stop building castles in the air and get back to reality will you? You're just making him hate you more with the way you're acting. All so childish and brattish. If I would say.
Sometimes...I just want to slap you hard and make you wake up from this disfunctional dream of yours. I really do.

So what's up with the badmouth behind my back? Yup. I know..know..I'm just so intresting to talk about right? Miss ....! Seems to me you realised all the things that are going behind your back.

We all clearly know who's the one who has been updating you about everything. We know. We clearly do. We're not idiots.

I have a very good suggestion here for you. Leave all of us alone and all those around us. And pack your bags of to some far away island where you can lie and lie and lie and nobody will know anything. * the minute you leave, champagne,whisky,wine and vodka corks will be corked in conjuction withe our celebrations.*

So please. You and that little so called good friend of yours leave all of us alone and the two of you can stay in the same boat. We're not planning of joining you. We've got brains darling.

Sad to say. You just make it impossible for us not to b.... about you.

Period.

Ps: remember this. She once hated you. Watch your back.

Happy Seventeen Birthday Kashven!

Today marks a very special day for one of my very best friends, Kashven.
A very special person and definitely someone who plays a little and small significant role in my life.
3 years of friendship has brought us a long way. We fought. We bitched about others. Had all those heart-to-heart talks and all the girl stuff.
I really appreaciate all that she has done for me and I'll always remember those times.

Thanks a lot for everything.
YOu're 17!!!! Enjoy life to the fullest and make the best out of everything.
You're legal to drive and drink. So next time when I get back, you drive, we drink together. lol.

She's helluva one of those special girlfriends!!!!!

HAPPY SEVENTEEN BIRTHDAY KASHVEN!!!!!!

Ps: So much for good friends. I can't seem to locate the pics we have to gether.

Muakzz. Hugs and kisses.

Lainey.

Great Minds Think Alike

Funny it seems. Ppl say that when you're close with that someone, you think in line with that person. Well probably I have to finally believe some of that stuff.

I was sitting in the room watching tv and suddenly the phone rang. Butt glued to the sofa, I refused to get up and answer it. expecting it to be my mum's phone. Suddenly a thought came to my mind, what if it is Cheryl. She's comming back soon right. Sure enough. My mum shouted for me.
Guess who was on the line. CHERYL SAW!!!! I was like OMG!!!!OMG!!!!
hehe. She called from adelaide just to say she misses me and she's comming back this sat!!!!
She made my day. :)

Shit. I have a EST Presentation on Globalisation tomorrow. And it still seems like Greek and French. Globalisation is the movement of people, goods, capitals and ideas due to increased economic integration which in turn is propelled by increase trade and investment.

So Angsana, bear with me tomorrow. I'm going to give you ppl a presentation on French & Greek.

I've got You Figured Out.

I'm getting preety sick of everything . So I'll do a super random post here.
A walk into my bathroom and i just realised everything is so pink. except for the tiles on the wall. It's all pink from my tootbrush to the shower curtain to my towel. Welcome to my world of randomness.

it took me years and months to finally understand you. Now that i have, We're miles apart. Can't everybody be born lucky? It's like when we're together we never loved each other the way we love each other now.

Guess we always took things for granted and never cherished what we had at that point of time.

You're a part of me and I'll always be your other half. that's probably the only thing that's keeping us going.

I can't wait for May holls. I need to get out someplace because i need a really big break.

Most importantly I can't wait to see you! :)

Just can't get you out of my mind. You're like my ecstacy and vodka. Just the way I want it.

Highlight of the month. My gf is comming abck from Aus. Hopefully with a trunk load of hot looking aus guys and presents! Can't wait to see you Cheryl...really miss those heart-heart girl talks.

Playing Truant

I know...I know...April Fool was on Tuesday but I decieded to play a little prank and skip school today. really shocking considering a little "angel" like me.



So here I am sitting here blogging when I should be studying. :)



Elaine, buck up. Exams are round the corner so start fooloing around and study!!!!!!!! "nerding time" is here to stay.

Finishing The Race

Finally. I'm in some kind of good mood today so I'll blog seriously and not any one of those emo post.

30 March 2008.
KL Marathon. It seriously has been years since I've participated in a marathon. When I was not running druing the past years, I was my dad's very own personal cheerleader when he was running. Finally I've steped into my dad's shoes and I'll continue to make him proud.

Honestly, probably the main thing that actually motivated me to participate was the fact that we would actually get marks and a cert. hehe. my koko = 0. lol.

During those time of training at the gym & with friends, the adrenalin and the fun of running seems to flood back. At that time I knew, I could do it.

I was really motivated that day and I finished the race. 7 km in all. at first I lacked self-confidence but halfway through, Brian caught up with me and told me to run and don't give up. That really really motivated me. I ran and finish the race.

I could have done better and finish faster if it wasn't for my stupid fcu...shoes. The stupid sole's came out before the marthon. NIKE sucks. and mine's a real one not some stupid one that you buy in petaling street. mine's original from Singapore. Orchard road. talk to me about it. I've never even worn the shoes more than 100 times. pffft.

Boosting Ego's

Somewhere someplace, I must have lost my self esteem and confidence. I view myself as pretty much failure in everything I do and I never seems to accomplish and get anything out of what I do.

I tend to judge myself so much that I'm often demotivated by my own judgements. I'm totally obessed with everything that it actually breaks me.

Sometimes, it's like I'm living my life to impress others and not living life to the fullest. I try so hard and yet I never seem to be satistified with myself.

I struggle day in day out with something I've been battling for ages, but I never seem to achieve it. Do I really have to succumb to drastic measures?

I critise myself too often this days, till I actually get really down and my self esteeem seems to go down the drain.

Why can't I just be happy with who I am and let all critics and judgements wheeze past me and not affect me.

Everyday, I seem to be putting on a plastic smile. It's getting really hard to do so. Sometimes, I really want to want to break down and cry. But I never seem to be able to do so. Everything's just trap in me.

At times, I feel neglected and alone. I feel like I'm a living shadow. I seem to be invisible to all those around me.

I'm sick of putting on a happy face and plastic smile. I'm just soo sick of it.

People around me has already realised that I'm not the same perky person they all know. I hate to admit this but I'm just so fed up with everything, I've lost the meaning of life.

The happiness and the wonders of the world has all been lost along the way.

I'm juts so sick and fed up.

Period.

APRIL FOOL!!!

it's April already. and it's APRIL FOOL.

Better buck up elaine. Exams are round the corner and you better do well and make yourself proud.

Seems like April Fool this year is not as fun as others! :)